Being incarcerated I have had a chance to observe myself without
distraction. Things about myself have come to the surface that I've
had the opportunity to deal with head on. In the past I've always
been a control freak with no filter who pushes every individual
that tried to help me as far away as possible. I have never been the
most expressive person, and connecting with people on an emotional
level was always very hard for me. Now I am very motivated, and
will no longer be restrained by life's circumstances in overcoming
my personal flaws. I have within me an unquenchable desire to
excel at everything that I do from here on out. One of the most
important factors includes having a loving and active role within
my family as well as my community. In the past my biggest mistake
was trying to reach perfection... For I've learned perfection
cannot be obtained by anyone. We all have human flaws. I now
realize that in spite of my limitations and character defects,
a kind of qualitative worth may still express itself. I know my
life being well lived from this point on will be a wonder to be hold.
I fully appreciate what it means to be a human being, and I
no longer mistakenly believe that I have to be perfect. Even though
I carry an enormous amount of regret for the people I have
hurt both physically and emotionally I am not fixated on the past,
nor overwhelmed by the present moment, but only focused on
focusing my energy on attaining my future. In writing these lines
I am aware of the possibilities in skepticism, but understand
that I am expressing myself, and while it may be challenging I do
intend to match deeds with words. My life will be a source of
greatness, and inspiration to others that wish to thrive in the
face of adverse conditions as I have. While thinking of future
challenges I am filled with anticipation and charged with
enthusiasm. I am full of having the will to live, to overcome,
and upon my release I am sure I will obtain new heights.
Thank you for reading what came from my heart, and
I hope all the one's who I love are doing well.
-Carl Edwards
I Am Legend
